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December 12 does wound heals? I got back from Dallas few days ago, and I visited Dallas after 6 months or so but unfortunately I didn't get to visit Faizan. I was occupied with other tasks and spending time with family. It was on my mind to visit his grave but I kept putting it off because the plan was to head back to Dallas for Christmas but plan changed. Now I won't return to Dallas until April or May :(
as usual Faizan has been on my mind, I keep thinking of different things. It will be a very unusual day if he doesn't come across my mind. Like, yesterday my girlfriend suggested that Dec 22 is Friday so we should go to religious center to pray for him...
today, I have been thinking that it was two years ago when he died. Honestly, the thought of my birthday around the corner (Dec 21st) brings a lot of memories back...it was on my birthday when we knew that he will not survive and he died the next morning (Dec 22nd). I have been getting a lot of flashback...that one week was the toughest week I have been thru...it has left a far reaching impact on my life and my loved ones...sometimes even when I joke with my girlfriend about having children, I lose words when I think of how I will tell my children that I have a brother but he is in better place...with every walk of life there is an impact...
a lot of people say, with time the hurt wound heals...but I would say that in case of losing a close dear loving brother it’s not true. Of course, everyone has their own opinion. The wound of bitter past relationship with friends can heal because you just move on...but in case of losing a sibling, there is nothing such as "move on"...I would say that with time, people have to make themselves strong...strong enough that there are able to execute their daily tasks and achieve their life goals...
in other words I would say is that I have learned to live with the fact that he is not on this earth...the feelings in the heart is still the same...its only that I have programmed my brain to do the things which I need to do...which doesn't diminish the wound...
life means learn from both good and tough times...tough times teaches you things which shapes your life...so the interesting thing is...Faizan was a very lively person...who always had fun and enjoyed his time...I used to be too serious about things in my life...he used to always tell me that don't be too serious, enjoy your life and have fun...if you are serious all the time then you will not get time to have fun... until his death I didn't take his advice seriously, but his death taught me that I do need to enjoy life...which means enjoy the time with my times with my loved ones...my girlfriend...family...you just never know what will happen the next second...it was only after a minute after I spoke to Faizan on phone he got in accident... TrackbacksThe trackback URL for this entry is: http://rahim.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!F43A07DD06D5E80F!190.trak Weblogs that reference this entry
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